just sing


Why is is that we always have to find a way to place structure in expression. We always find it that in order for one to express themselves we have to structure it make rules principles and guidlines. Actually, I am going to use a noun that Sister Patricia Melanson enables all of her students without fear of being grammatically incorrect. I. I am an aspiring musician actor and politician. I am my own worst critic. I find it that in order for a person to properly express themselves the must do it in such a manor that makes artists everywhere proud. I am not saying that i believe that in order for a person to sing act dance or whatever has to be good at it i just belive that when u showcase it should be held up to a certain standard. Unfortunately i grew up with this philosophy and i am shedding it away. What is decent, whose standards do i have to uphold to anyway. I am sick an tired of hearing "in order to do it you have to be really good at it or there is no point you are just waisting your time." I cant bear to hear another " i need to be the best or i have no chance". One of my favourites is " if its not perfect than its not good enough" why cant I just sing? Why cant i just act? Why can't i just dance? Why cant i just be? I am such a perfectionist that i actually am ruining my own talent by constantly critising the work i do. I WONT STAND FOR ANOTHER "ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH" NO MORE "DON'T BOTHER" I BREATHE EAT AND LIVE through what i do. If i can't be happy with my own art how can i ever be happy. The only one who doesn't know happiness is the only one who doesn't see it's call. In order for me to hear that call i have to be happy with what i do. I have a friend who wishes to reach other people through her music but she feels she is not good enough. All i can say is that she is making a grave mistake one i almost made and i can tell u (friend) tha u have touched more people with your voice than u could ever imagine. And as i leave this journal for today all i want to do is "just sing".